What is this I have fallen into once again? Another silly crush? Oh how could this be? It’s quite funny actually. The ones that seem to capture my attention are those that are simple out of my league. Is it all in my head? Could be. But I like to weigh the odds and the reality of things, and the odds are always against me.

I don’t know. I have had this happen to me quite a few times, like that one time in 9. Boy, was that a bust. But then again, I learned to stand my ground and to not get my hopes up so high. 

It’s confusing to be honest. These feelings. It’s something that’s happened but it always seems so unfamiliar when it comes back. And I hate the fact that I can’t control it. What can I do about it? I know these feelings will fade, but then it just comes crawling back like a parasite.

We human are absolutely complex.

And then there’s that point where I just want to… say hi, and then try to get to know you. But then I think, “What if I come off as a creep? Maybe I’m just a bother.” So I shy away, never really knowing what could actually happen. I’ll just be that admirer from far far away and hope that maybe I’ll get lucky and I’ll be noticed by you.

Yes. One day. That 1 in a million. I’ll be that lucky guy.

-George